Only in movies there's never too late. 

 I'm the biggest dickhead I know.

 I have to let me go.

expert of unnecessary things.

 I'm an fucking expert of unnecessary thing. I am an unnecessary thing.

 I'm gonna be all alone for the rest of my life because no one will EVER be as perfect as Jensen Ackles.

struggling to breathe again.

 I expected It would be hard. But not that much. I thought I have all of this is behind me. That I got over with it. She helped me realised that I can't shake it off like snap of my fingers. 

Everybody's been abandoned and left a little empty-handed.

 I wanna be able to enjoy the little things. Like smile from a child, nice weather, gold trees, people around me, great books, mesmerising music, each new follower on tumblr/fashiolista/deviantart... 

I wanna be brave enough to be happy.

Why can I make everyone happy but me?

abandonment, abandonment, abandonment.

I can't mobilize myself to do simply anything. I should learn, read and make my matriculation presentation. And I sit on my ass doing nothing. Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hate myself.